Saturday, November 18, 2017

Figuring Things Out

relationships, emotions, separation, divorce, single mother, solo mom, who i am, what i need

I'm still not quite sure where I stand.

I'm finding my way.

Figuring things out.

It's so so very difficult.

My emotions bubble to the surface.

I feel them. Fight them. Let them rise. Allow them to overflow.

All the while - figuring things out.

I don't quite know what the rest of this year will bring.

I'll tell you, though, a year ago this week I would never have guessed my world would have changed so much in less than - well - not a year, not even four months.

It's true. What they say. That time flies.

And yet. It's not.

Because time trudges along so slowly.

And me?

I'm still here.

Figuring things out.

I see a semblance of some future.

I watch my daughter navigate her emotions.

I see and feel myself succumb to mine.

And then I stand again.


As tall as my 5' 2" self can.

And I take steps forward.

Still finding my way.

Figuring things out.

I'm too reliant.

Too trusting?


Too hopeful?

No. Not really.

I'm just working at not being hopeLESS.

To do that - what remains - what I need ...


And so, I move forward.

Figuring things out.


  1. Keep on keeping on. That's what I've had to tell myself this year as well. I look forward to getting through the holidays and hopefully having a better year next year.

    Kim @ The ReInVintaged Life

  2. Ooph. I'm so sorry for all you're having to navigate right now. It's tough enough to worry about working through it all for yourself, but watching your girl feel her way through has to be so very tough at times. It sucks, but as you know from past difficult times the only way to get through the rough stuff is to keep moving through it. Lean on those closest to you, like that sweet, loving mom of yours. And love that little girl like nobody's business. xoxo

  3. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️


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