As many of my readers know, I've been participating in ZonePerfect's Blog Forward challenge this year. I even wrote myself a letter kicking my own butt off the couch and into high gear.
Unfortunately, that girl still needs a kick in the behind.
In the worst way.
I don't know what it is that led me to find myself stuck again this year.
I find myself yo-yo-ing.
I don't yo-yo on the scale, so that's a good thing.
But my mind. My motivation. My spirit. My moods.
All of it. I get stuck.
Do you know what that's like?
I admit that I'm a real person. I'm human. I've found motivation and I've lost it again. I keep trying to find my way. I track my food on MyFitnessPal. But then I don't.
Emotionally and realistically, I don't want to be dependent upon an app. I don't want to have to look down at my phone every.single.time I eat - or am about to. Don't we do that enough already?
I don't want to measure my food. I hate counting calories. I know it's a good way to go, and it probably does work, but sometimes I loathe it. Makes me want to scream at my phone just because I'm scanning barcodes and inputting product names and recipes.
But I know that all those "don't wants" aren't going to get me to where I sometimes want to be.
Because I DO want to be fit and healthy. And I want to stop with the excuses. The reasons that I don't head out for a walk are simple. It's hellishly hot in the summer. And then the fall comes and I blame my allergies. Is that a load of hooey? Sure. Sometimes. But sometimes not.
My Wii remotes don't charge or have batteries.
I need a new sports bra.
I need to write. I need to read. I need to - I have to - I want to - I should.
I should accept myself as I am. More often than not? I do.
I have a post coming up soon that just might show you some pics of me being fashionable. For serious. I attended a conference and felt more body positive than I ever had before. I even worked out two mornings at the crack of dawn at the hotel gym. ME. I worked out.
So I'm not sure what I need and what it is that will get me back on track. I'm not sure whether I'll stay there permanently when I do find my way, or if I'll fall off and get sidetracked again, or whatever else might come my way.
But I can't beat myself up over it. I just won't let myself.
This challenge has helped me recognize that there are things that are important to me. And me? I'm one of them.
You should be, too. You should prioritize and take care of you.
ZonePerfect wants to help you put yourself first. They've provided me with a well-being kit to give YOU. It's got a reusable tumbler, a pedometer, hair-ties (if you don't want these let me know and I'll keep 'em, I consistently lose mine or have them snagged by a precocious 7-year-old!), lip balm, hand sanitizer and a box of ZonePerfect bars. Yep. All that just for you. I saved you a grown-up box of bars, by the way. No kiddie bars for my winner!
I'd like to give you two opportunities to enter. The first one is where I ask you to give me one of your fitness goals for the coming months. Leave me a comment and make sure I can get ahold of you somehow so I can notify you if you win.
And second? If you'd be so kind as to tweet for me, that would be your second entry. I'm going to provide you with the tweet below and you can hit retweet. Just give me the URL in a separate comment and you're good to go!
Head over to see @goodgirlgonered and learn why YOU should be important to yourself. #blogforward http://t.co/G3SU65FlVeThe more people who know the better - right? Spread the fitspiration!
— Andrea B (@goodgirlgonered) October 13, 2014
* I am participating in the Blog Forward Challenge with ZonePerfect. They have sent me some bars to try, but all opinions about the bars, experiences shared and emotions expressed here are completely and utterly my own. They have also provided me with prizes to give my winner (as indicated within the post). I am not being financially compensated for this post. You will find some affiliate links in this post - which will help me save up for a fitbit or a Jawbone UP or something! *