Sunday, September 30, 2012

It's my turn - so now what?

How easy is it to say now what?

SO simple. Such easy words to ask ourselves, time and time again.

But what happens when we try to answer?

Dang. That's what happens.

We get stuck. We get scared. We freak our freaks out.

And yet, it's okay. It's totally normal. It's what happens when we're human, we're not infallible, and we breathe.

I sit here, making notes in my head on what I want to do next with my life.

I've found new homes to volunteer in and I love them, every single thing about them. They're perfect for me.

But there is only so much I can do every single day to support these causes. Only so much room for me there. Only so much I can give of myself.

So I toss myself out there again. I throw my hat into the invisible ring.

Or the visible one.

I need to work. I need to write. I need those things like I need to breathe.

I take the time to look into things, but I know there are certain parts of who I am that hold me back.

So I try to move forward. Close my eyes, dream a little bit, and open my eyes and run! RUN TO THE DREAM!! Do it - move it - run like the wind, Bullseye!**

I've started looking into some social media positions for myself. Maybe something part time? I'm a writer. I know the world of the Internet well enough to maneuver it. Maybe someone will find me worthwhile?

I've started looking at social work jobs and feeling what might come next. It's pretty awesome to consider that my world is opening up again for me. I'm ready to give of myself in a professional capacity and be there for clients who might need me. Need my words. My voice.

And I'm ready to do so much more, I just need to figure out which step comes first.

I just need to ask myself ... Now what?

And then I need to get off my behind and JUST DO IT.

* This post was written to participate in both, Stream of Consciousness Sundays AND Just Be Enough's Now What? Prompt. You can find both of these incredible websites by clicking either button below.

** And if you don't know this quote you'd better say so. I don't want to sound ridiculous or anything.



  1. We mamas have spent too much time at home when we find our deepest philosophies from Pixar movies.

    You are going to do it. Whatever "it" is...and you'll be great.

  2. I'm kinda in the same boat as you, but with my homework load. I still have a bunch to do ><.

  3. I really love this! I completely understand where you're coming from!

    Also, I really like the Toy Story reference. :D

  4. Your future clients need your heart. Go for it!

  5. Hahahaha- Toy Story rules. I totally get where you're coming from, though. It's not easy....

  6. Beautifully written. I feel like I'm in the same place as you right now. Thanks for sharing! :)

  7. Love this. You said it all perfectly Andrea. :) Great writing. And I am feeling the SAME way lately!-Ashley

  8. I do not know that quote, although just yesterday I was able to successfully quote Saved By the Bell, so maybe I don't feel bad!

    You CAN do it, Mama! You are amazing!

  9. I wish some of your motivation would rub off on me! You have some excitement in your future, it sounds like!

  10. "opening up again for me" I know that feeling well! I hope you find something that is challenging and gives you the feelings of independence and accomplishment you are looking for out there in our big world.

  11. DO IT, Andrea, JUST DO IT! GO FOR IT!

    xoxoxoxo, mama!

  12. Sending you endurance and clarity and wisdom as you take those steps!! *HUG*

  13. Just Do It! ... That's all we really need to remember in life. Just do it, whatever it is. We are capable and valuable and worthy so let's just do it.


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