Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out



Are you a crier? I totally am. I cry at everything. Seriously, I just do.


Last night, after my all day class and returning home to find my new washer-dryer in use, my AC finally working and my hubby, well, POd at me because I was questioning things about the AC issue ...
And then we get ready to go grab dinner, the child does not want to get in the carseat, and all she keeps saying is "I want Daddy. I want Daddy to do it."

Well, eventually, I cried. Not huge and overflowing tears, but tears just the same. And then, when she pulled that same schpiel when we got TO the restaurant and didn't want me to get her out of the carseat, I refused to oblige, unbuckled her, pulled her out of the car and passed her to her father. And walked away. And at some point after that, you know what? I cried again.


Sometimes our children know exactly how to impact us to such a point that there is no other way to turn but tears. They don't always mean to, but they can be stubborn, strong-willed, bull-headed and refuse to listen, and we, the parents, find ourselves so damned exhausted that crying is our only relief.


I cried through many of the early days of Motherhood. I cried when my daughter cried, when I dealt with aspects of my own version of PPD (mine was more anxiety, but still ... I cried), and when the child would just not settle down.


I have cried when I've lost loved ones. Family members to death, friends to life. I cried when I was pregnant and had the worst headaches ever. Where Tylenol did sh!t for me, and I sat there, sipping a can of Coke (yes, regular) crying my eyes out as my only relief. And you know what? It worked!


I cry on the phone with my mom, when I leave my parents' home to return to NC, when they come to visit and leave us to head home. I am a crier. I get it from my mom. Sssh, don't tell anyone, but my brother is like us, too.


I cry when people pi$$ me off. I cry when I'm terribly angry. I cry when I'm disappointed. I cry when I'm surprised. Waterworks are a way for me to feel, and I open myself up to them when I need to.


Do you cry? When's the last time you had a really good cry? If you feel you need one after this, just let me know. I'm sure I have a movie I can refer you to (yes, I cry at movies. I'm human, after all!) to get those tears flowing!

Don't tell anyone, but the last few times my daughter watched Annie I found myself in tears. What can ya' do, ya know?

10 comments:

  1. I never used to be a crier, but motherhood changed that. I cried the other day because I was just so tired.

    It doesn't take much any more.

    Thanks for linking up!

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  2. I've always been emotional, but it has gotten worse since kids. There's nothing wrong with being emotional.

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  3. OF COURSE I am a crier...I'm sure this is not shocking to you. I cried at the end of Terminator 2, because, you know, he had to put his father figure into the vat o' whatever that was...just to give you some perspective.

    It's just my natural reaction to stress or unexpected news or empathy and can be quite embarrassing...you know, say, when in a meeting with your boss, trying to explain that you are fine, can continue the conversation, but you were just caught off guard by what he had to say!

    I didn't link up with PYHO today, tried to do Wordless Wednesday instead...I am not wordless...I am feeling deprived :)

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  4. Typically I am not a crier, but darn if those kids don't know how to push me past my tolerance threshold everytime.

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  5. I cry and cry and cry...all the time. It's pathetic really. :)

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  6. I just found this video clip over at Mama Kat's and OMG, I am sitting here bawling. I can't watch the second one yet, as my eyes are stinging right now. SO special. SO precious.

    http://bit.ly/9kcdbF

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  7. I am a crier, too. I cried 10 days ago at my BFF's wedding. I literally just now got choked up when I looked at a tweetpic of an oil spill wave. I RT'd it, though, b/c it needs to be seen.

    Nothing wrong with being a crier.

    Wonderful post, Andrea!

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  8. Such a fabulous post, Andrea. Motherhood can do strange things to you. I was never a crier before I had kids. Now? Most anything can bring me to tears.

    You're not alone!

    -Francesca

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  9. Crying is such a good way to relieve stress. It really does help. I am more of a weeper than anything, but my tears flow freely.

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  10. Who's not a crier girl??? lol

    Those that say their not are those who later on have the 'issues' and are told that they should just cry it out anyways jst jk

    btw/ I did want to tell you that I'm from Queens,NY now living in Texas. Woot!!Woot!! for the New Yorkers that have found the love for Sweet Tea and Hush Puppies ^_^

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