Maybe I won't ever be ...
I'll wait until I wake up on the morning of September 11, 2011 and I'll open my eyes. Roll over and kiss my husband. Walk to my daughter's room and peek in. Or - who am I kidding? I always sleep later than everyone else on the weekends! Rewind and try again.
I'll open my eyes. Wipe the sleep out of them. And listen.
Will it be quiet? Upstairs, maybe. Will I hear them? I'll listen as I hear my daughter and husband downstairs, talking, chatting, laughing, playing. Watching TV. I'll hear the start of a brand new day. And I'll trudge downstairs, itching for some lovin'.
And I'll walk over, give my baby a squeeze and remind myself that this ... this is why we wake up and face another day. Despite the sadness and lost we will remember. Despite the emotions we feel, as we did the year before. And the year before that.
And then I'll look back into these eyes, and at this crazy hair, and burst into giggles. Or tears. Or both.

And that'll be OK. Whatever I choose.
Whenever you decide to publish, that's when it's right.
ReplyDeleteShe's getting SO big! Cute picture :-) I know I still owe you a recipe. I haven't forgotten, I've just lost my mojo since my grandfather died. But I'm going to get it together and email it soon!
I love the photo, the sentiment, and how seriously you're taking this post.
ReplyDeleteIf you publish, I will read {and love} it. Deal?
No wrong time to post that, girl.
ReplyDeleteI almost did for PYHO yesterday.
The right time will be whenever you post it.
ReplyDeleteAnd your daughter?! Freaking preciouuus! :)
It's funny, because I'm almost glad it's the ten-year anniversary. These last few years, living down here, it felt sort of forgotten...not that I thought everyone should drop everything and commemorate, but it was like it was hardly noticed and I will never forget... at least this year it feels like people haven't forgotten
ReplyDeleteSo, on a serious note, do they make that Perry Platapus shirt in my size?
ReplyDeleteSo beautifully put! Love you! xoxo
ReplyDeleteShe is such a cutie pie!
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