Imagine that writing down your worst memory will free you of it.
I have been asked to write down my worst memory.
What is it?
I don't know. There may be too many things. I have lived a relatively uneventful life, but these memories exist. They are there. Hidden away. Pulled out on an anniversary. A sad day. A moment where I'm missing someone I loved with my whole heart. What shall I share with you today?
Why does it haunt you?
Why wouldn't it? Doesn't everyone have those moments? The ones that we just can't seem to let go of? The ones that leave an imprint on our minds, our hearts. Our very beings?
That's just it. Not a damned thing. Each and every time there was nothing I could have done. Life moved on. Nobody could have changed what happened. Life took hold and I grabbed on, held tight and stayed strong for the ride.
Write it down and let it go.No - that's okay. I'll pass for today. I mean, I know it works. It truly does. Or it can. But for today, you can do that. Because you know what? I've done it already. Several times over, in fact. For each and every incident that makes me who I am. And each time, each and every SINGLE time, I feel better for a bit. I move forward just an inch or two. Or ten. But then I remember again. I remember sadness. I remember fear. And I remember loss. Lots and lots of loss.
* I mean no disrespect to the Write on Edge ladies with this post. Honestly, it was the best I could do with this prompt, as I am just drained this week(end) and not ready to tear open the memories I usually dive right into. I looked through my posts, trying to find the moments that made me ache the most, and there are so many. So many sad memories, so many painful recollections and they each have their place. So in a few months you'll hear from me as our nation remembers. And then when January comes you'll feel me again. And again in March. And the year goes on, the pain still flows, and the memories recycle themselves into post after post. When I need them to. So I have this written, and I'm not sure it counts so I am not sure if I should link up - but I'm sure either way I'll figure it out. And I thank them for bringing me home - in my head, and my heart. And I'll catch them all on Friday, I'm sure!